I don't mean physically, necessarily. I mean deep down soul tired, the way I get when I think about the world too closely for too long. It just drains away whatever hope and optimism I had in me.
I'm so tired of people being violent, negligent, indifferent, and cruel to children.
I'm so sick and tired of war.
I'm so tired of the endless lies that pervade our public and private lives.
I'm so tired of religious, nationalistic, and ideological fanaticism, the source of so very much unspeakable human suffering.
I'm tired and terrified of certainty, the demon in so many people that says, "I'm right, you're wrong, and if you get in my way, I'll kill you" (or, alternatively, "Believe what I believe or you're going to hell!")
For that matter, I'm tired of people who think so badly of God that they believe in hell at all.
I'm tired of dishonesty and deceit at every level of human life.
I'm tired of ignorance, malice, and hatred masquerading as faith.
I'm tired of people assaulting each other.
I'm tired of having to be ashamed of being a member of the human species when I read our history.
I'm tired of false hope, false prophets, false "holy books", false rituals, and the inherent falsehood in all human attempts to claim "knowledge" of the inscrutable and unknowable God.
I'm tired of people interfering in the private lives of other people.
I'm tired of people busting their asses and working themselves to death for next to nothing while undeserving scumbags have wealth showered upon them.
Sometimes, I'm just tired of life.
There are only 2 or 3 of you who will see this (mostly Lance and Paul). I don't mean to be a drag. But sometimes, it's just the way I feel.